30 Day Results

You would think after the first post showing my mom gut I would be over it but NOPE.

I'm still just as reluctant to share shit. 

I HATE showing my body let alone to the entire world. 

Let me tell you something though. 

The minute I did it held me accountable and guess what...

It fucking worked! 

Seriously!

See for yourself. 

This is 30 days of at home workouts. 

I was a skeptic. 

No way would I ever buy into a pyramid scheme were my thoughts for so long. 

But...

What did I have to lose? 

Nothing, nothing at all. 

It had been almost 6 years of feeling frumpy AF. 

I was over it. 

I kept making excuses that it was just sooo expensive and there was no way I was going to pay that much to lose weight. 

Guess what..  when my thoughts changed so did I! 

Read that again folks. 

"When my thoughts changed so did I".

That's right. As soon as I chose to spend the money and look at it in a different light, EVERYTHING changed.
And I mean EVERYTHING!

I am no longer a skeptic, I am no longer making excuses.
And I SEE PROGRESS.
The same progress I have longed for the same progress I sat daily watching others obtain while I stayed in excuses.

For me I had to think of it like this,
I spend 1.50 to 3.00 a day on coffee. I also spent roughly 5 dollars a day on lunch.
Of course sometimes I brought coffee from home and brought my lunch but add up what I would spend if I didn't.
Add up what I would spend on just coffee, and now replace it with a healthy alternative.
You see where I am going.
The point is, look what my benefits are just from changing my routine.

Imagine what I will look like in another 30 days.

I CAN'T wait!
You should join me!!!!

Comment below, I would LOVE to have ya on my team.

See ya soon
J

A Leap of Faith

And I did just that ladies and gents.

For 2 years I sat on the fence about the job I held. I was so consumed with guilt about what may or may not happen if I just quit then and there. 

It became a nightmare to go in each day, it became a place I felt suffocated while there and dread would set in before ever pulling into the parking lot.

Don't get me wrong I absolutely loved the type of work I did but the place of employment was utterly exhausting.

I am not one to slander a company and this is a VERY well reputable one so we will leave it disclosed but just know you are only a number not an employee.

Welcome to Corporate America.

(insert puke sign)

Back to my final go for it, after about 2 full weeks of brutal anxiety attacks, many tears and the hubs saying " I have this, just do it", I put my two weeks resignation in.

The next day was spent in an hour and half meeting with my boss who in turn had convinced me to just stay and try it out a bit longer.

I have to admit I walked out of there feeling a bit better, as if a new light was over turned and we could possibly (small possibly) make this work.

One week later as I sat at my desk and an email came through about some nonsense, I made a rash decision to pack up quietly leave my keys, parking badge and security badge neatly on my desk and without a blink walk out the doors to my LEAP OF FAITH.

(no I do not wish to hear your opinion on how I should not have done that, for all you hard core right doers)

I left that day with no idea what I was going to do for the money I would now be missing, or what my next move would be. I had several ideas in mind but no real plan of action no real sure fire way to say in the 2 weeks I now had until bills were due again there would be a way to pay them.

BUT 

I knew I was free! 

Free from the dread, the stress and the overwhelming daily struggle of hating your job.

I got in my car that day and sat there for a minute just to take in what actually just occurred and probably freak out a bit too. 

Taking a leap of faith felt oh so good but so damn terrifying all in one breath.

I went home that day feeling like the weight of the world had been lifted and now was my chance to start again and do anything I wanted to do.

BUT

what... what would I do?? 

Go back to the 9-5 brick and mortar roll where micromanagement was the key for success, reach out to the social media world and attempt to pull in some kiddos to provide childcare for or maybe I could try my hand at this fitness thing everyone else can do it why can't I after all health and fitness have always been a dream of mine, or maybe I could put my crafting skills to use and see what I could come up with there, the list in my head goes on and on.

Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it without knowing what's going to happen next.

Delicious ambiguity

(Gilda Radner)

Needless to say I am nervous but I am going to think positive and make the most of this blessed opportunity that not everyone gets. 

I believe in turn this will show me what's next!

Over a month later

It's like time just literally is in over drive every single day of my life.

I have list upon list of things to do and deadlines that expired long ago.

Making time to worry about calories or exercise is nonexistent.

I wish I could say it wasn't but I am not here to sugar coat life with a troop for you
 It is down right hard as F!
On a positive note I am down 3 whopping pounds and no that is not from anything spectacular.
This here is real life peeps, sometimes you have so many amazing thoughts and just no time to put them into action.
This was much easier as a stay at home mom.
My days go something like this...


All in bed by 9pm, me asleep somewhere in the middle of dinner being cleaned up and showers.
Now where in the hell does this exercise routine come in!?



Swear I have the grandest of intentions but never have the time to make them happen.
So my motto has just been do what you can with what you have.
With this thought process I have been able to at least make sure to squeeze in some push ups a few days a week and some squats.
I already pretty much eat healthy, I always have.
I love all that weird stuff that comes with the label HEALTHY, so that helps.
Truth be told I am in the same boat as probably hundreds or thousands of other working moms who cant find the time to fit themselves in.
I am sure some schedules are 5 times worse then mine.
So ladies here is a new motto for us.

BINGO
And just like that I have it all figured out.
Pretty much what I am tryin to say here is... Life is way to short to worry to much about all this exercise jazz.
 Stay healthy, eat the right stuff to fuel your body and keep it movin, that's what ya have to do.
Then one day when the monkeys are all grown you will have all the time you need for you.
BOOM!!!
And that's a wrap folks.
Ending on this note:

Day 12

Well well here we are day 12!

Where to begin, hmmmmmm

So did I follow a strict diet, meal prep and count calories, ummmmm nope.

Did I follow an exercise routine and wake up at 2 am seeing how I get up on the norm at 4 for work, nope can't say that I did.

Did I exercise at all well hell ya I did, there are 5 to the bunch. I am lucky to sit down. I usually stop when I'm horizontal and that is it.

Soooo did I do anything I had in mind to start this journey of getting fit and healthy um honestly nope, not really.

You see this is the problem I do my usual routine and by time I am home, dinner is served and baths are had, I am so tired I cannot hold my eyes open.

The struggle is real peeps!

It really is a total mind changer.
You have to change your life and routine to get the results you want.
I just cant figure out what I am waiting on. 

60 degrees here in February and all I could do was think damn it Jessica spring and summer are right around the corner. 

Here I am literally almost 3 years later saying the exact same shit I was then.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

When does the I will just do it tomorrow stop?

How do you just get off your ass and do it?

I am either too tired or too F that to work out everyday and not pick up that cookie when work pissed me off and I just think I need something sweet. HA
It is as frustrating as can be but I blame no one but me, I have in no way done what I set out to do.
2 weeks later and I feel just as worn out, bloated and frumpy as I did when I wrote the original.
Ugh wheres the motivation!! Come on guys help a chic out here, tell me how did you decide enough was enough? What made you finally just change your life ?
I will take any pointers, tips, whatever ya got for me.


Welp folks here's to another beautiful blessed day.
Let it be known this day is NOT over yet and I will be putting in 30 minutes of exercise  today.