Over a month later

It's like time just literally is in over drive every single day of my life.

I have list upon list of things to do and deadlines that expired long ago.

Making time to worry about calories or exercise is nonexistent.

I wish I could say it wasn't but I am not here to sugar coat life with a troop for you
 It is down right hard as F!
On a positive note I am down 3 whopping pounds and no that is not from anything spectacular.
This here is real life peeps, sometimes you have so many amazing thoughts and just no time to put them into action.
This was much easier as a stay at home mom.
My days go something like this...


All in bed by 9pm, me asleep somewhere in the middle of dinner being cleaned up and showers.
Now where in the hell does this exercise routine come in!?



Swear I have the grandest of intentions but never have the time to make them happen.
So my motto has just been do what you can with what you have.
With this thought process I have been able to at least make sure to squeeze in some push ups a few days a week and some squats.
I already pretty much eat healthy, I always have.
I love all that weird stuff that comes with the label HEALTHY, so that helps.
Truth be told I am in the same boat as probably hundreds or thousands of other working moms who cant find the time to fit themselves in.
I am sure some schedules are 5 times worse then mine.
So ladies here is a new motto for us.

BINGO
And just like that I have it all figured out.
Pretty much what I am tryin to say here is... Life is way to short to worry to much about all this exercise jazz.
 Stay healthy, eat the right stuff to fuel your body and keep it movin, that's what ya have to do.
Then one day when the monkeys are all grown you will have all the time you need for you.
BOOM!!!
And that's a wrap folks.
Ending on this note:

Can I get a rewind?

Wasn't until I hit 30 that time seemed to just go, go, go. It was like I was now on a new watch and it was in fast forward, if I didn’t hurry I would miss out. So I tried to catch up, even tried to change all clocks in the house as if I would gain some timeage.

Nope, nothing worked, days turned to months, turned to years and then folks... then I realized OMGoshness in just one tiny small little bitty year my BABY will be 18. GROWN people, like BIG boy pants on do your own thing, wash your own ass, pay your own rent and figure out this crazy life on your own type stuff. I don't know about you but this saddens me like no other. I could not wait for him to grow up, learn some grown stuff like responsibility. He has drove me crazy for lack of better words. This is the one who gave the BIGGEST dilemmas in school, thought he was OG gangster and rebelled like nobody’s business. The one who knew everything, went from a skateboarder to a BMX rider to a rapper/tattoo artist all in a few years’ time. This is the same kid who would help the homeless man he saw under the bridge while on his many walking ventures, the same kid who sees greatness in all walks of life, shapes and sizes. 

He is the one everyone pointed at and ridiculed me about saying he would never make it out there. The very one that I never gave up believing in when everyone else did. He is the boy without a father, no male role model to guide him all these years, no one to show him how to be from a man's perspective. There is a HUGE line between involved and not, it sure does make or break a child. It is not the same to have your mom bear the weight of both, but by golly we made it, and we made it smiling. For all those times I didn't think I could go on, all those times I saw a lost path but kept pushing through, for all those people who said we wouldn't make it... 

LOOK at us now!! 

The road has been rough, with a whole lot of tears anxiety and fear, but with love in your heart and the shear dedication to never give up, you can change a child's world around.

Though he always thought I was mean, wrong and leading him to nowhere, I am PROUD to say I would not change a single thing about him. He is perfect in every way!